Mortality and impulse control...

For some people morality is something that just fleetingly crosses their mind...if they even think of it at all. Many people like to live with the thought that they are immortal and so is everyone around them. I have the opposite thought. I see mortality eveywhere. I know every day when I send my kids to school that something could happen to me or them and we might never see each other again. I think about it pretty much everytime I get in the car. I have known too many people who were fine one minute and dead the next. My dad had just had a complete physical, heart checked and everything. A week later he was dead from a massive heart attack. A friend's 17 year old son went to work and was shot in the head while he was there. Another friend was sitting watching movies and snacking with his wife and she choked to dead. A cousin had a baby die the day she was to be induced, the baby was fine on ultrasounds two days before. All different deaths, all out of the blue things. I don't fill may day worrying about things like this, they are things you can't control and things that you would never be able to see coming. It would be wasted energy to lock yourself in a room to stay safe or worry everyday about how you might die. I am always aware of it though. My accepting my own mortality and that of the people around me is part of why I lack impulse control. If I want something, I want it right away. I mean, I might be dead tomorrow, so why wait. I feel the same way about waiting for the "perfect" timing for things. There is no perfect time. The perfect time is now, there might not be a later. The same is true for love. Why drag on long drawn out engagements just to plan the perfect wedding. Why not do it now. What if you found out you had only 6 weeks to live. I bet that perfect wedding wouldn't seem so important anymore and the perfect timing wouldn't be waited for. What if there is a person you are really wanting to be with, why wait...really there is no reason. One of you might not wake up in the morning. Your kids want to go to the park... Just take them It could be your last time.

That is all I have to say about that...:-)